i'm stressed. and i've come to realize certain things. it's really time for me to start worrying about myself and not so much about the problems of other people. i can listen to their problems but i shouldn't make it like something that will dramatically affect me. okay, perhaps that comes out sounding like i don't give a damn about the problems other people have, but it's not what i mean. problems are there for people to learn, for people to get through them and come out stronger, i can advise, i can help, but ultimately i shouldn't be so affected by them. guess that tuesday night was a learning experience for both me and my sister. somehow i've come to respect her more and i know now that i don't have to constantly look out for her. somehow her attitude was such that i knew she would get through it. and i'm proud of her for that.

also learnt stuff and just did a general evaluation. sorry if i acted a little immature in the past. yes, it's human nature to act that way sometimes, but i do feel that i've been in moods more often this year. i believe JC is more stressful. somehow there's more self awareness this year as compared to secondary school. yes, it's okay to act a little immature and spoilt and whine on and on like i'm doing now, but there must be some sort of balance.

i never said that i won't stop having moods.
i said i'll consider the feelings of people. and not lash out at innocent bystanders.
contrary to my popular belief, the world does not revolve around me.
it's just that i find it a little hard to believe that. haha

but i have a lot of things to do before i leave for national camp. the homework's piling up. and history essays are killer. got to do a comparative study of the unification of Germany and Italy. was feeling annoyed that i got picked to do it, along with 3 others. felt that Ms Edna Tan was picking on me. dunno why for 3 essays she's asked me to do the harder questions. but after that she explained that she wanted me to stretch my potential so it's okay now i guess. i guess as long as i put in the effort and work harder... liddat lor. i should stop complaining about this.

aiyar, stupid PW. going to kill someone already. gah, still got some stuff to do for guides farewell tmr. blog more when i have more time.